Breaking Dawn

I'm so excited about Stephenie Meyer's finale to the Twilight Series. I know it's cheesy and adolescent, but I love them anyway. Plus I just figured out how to add a countdown to my page so I am so proud of myself! If you haven't read them I recommend the series as a good escape. It's not intellectually stimulating, but a nice break from reality. Let me know if you have read them and what you think!

Sorry

To all those who saw my last post, I want to apologize. One thing you need to know about me is that I am not good about keeping my feelings and emotions to myself, I have to get them out and my blog seemed like a good place to vent. But no one is going to keep looking at my blog if it's all depressing and boo-hoo. And I certainly didn't do it for sympathy but more to explain why I have been a little different lately and to explain the rapid weight loss. (The stress diet works, but I don't recommend it!) Anyway, I found a better way to vent in a website called LDSJOURNAL.COM. It is an online journal and it has saved me! I can get on and put my thoughts, fears and worried onto the computer, instead of having to write them in a book. So I am including their website. I highly recommend it. You can turn your online journal into a hard bound book, you can also link it to your cell and send text entries. I didn't figure that part out yet, but it sounds cool. Anyway, just wanted to reassure you that my blog will no longer be depressing, so keep looking!

Uncertainty

I don't know if blogs are just for good news and happy stuff or what, but my life right now isn't full of happy stuff so sorry if this is a depressing post. My husband and I have decided to separate after 10 1/2 years of marriage. Hopefully this is a temporary thing and we can work out our issues and get back to a normal, happy life. I am trying to find positive things in this and to look for blessings. So here is what I've come up with. First, I am so greatful for my testimony and my faith. My Heavenly Father has helped me so much and has given me strength to go through this trial. I know the Lord doesn't give us anything above that which we can bear, so I am so greatful for the atonement of my Savior and the strength that gives me. Second, I am so greatful for my family. They have been a constant source of help, support, caring words and love. I could not go through this without them. Third, I am greatful for the support and love from the members of my ward and from my friends. I am not used to being the one who needs help and I appreciate everyone's willingness to help, even if I don't accept it as well as I should. I appreciate all the thoughts, prayers and caring words. They mean so much to me. Right now I have Hope, and that's about all I have, and I hope its enough.